I'm wondering where you are now
Married, or mad, or free:
Wherever you are you're likely glad,
But memory troubles me
We could've had us children
We could have had a home
But you thought not, and I thought not,
And these nine years we roam
Today I worked in the deep dark tanks,
And climbed out to watch the sea:
Gulls and salty waves pass by,
And mountains of Araby.
I've travelled the lonely oceans
And wandered the lonely towns,
I've learned a lot and lost a lot,
And proved the world was round
Now if we'd stayed together,
There's much we'd never've known
But deary books and weary lands
Weigh on me like a stone
(Indian Ocean)
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Saturday, February 28, 2015
Thursday, February 26, 2015
The English Gentleman
The
old English gentleman
is dying,
on a comfortable cushion
he choose
earlier in the day
to lay
out in the sun
after
eating a noon time meal
without
gorging eating little and slowly
Then with
eyes mostly closed
clambered
up the woven chair to the table
then crawled
on the cushion
to the
spot warmed by the sun
and I
went out to see him
and his
eyes were closed
his
breathing was regular but shallow
he
turned towards me,
or the
sound of my voice
and raised
his head,
his blue/grey
coat scruffy
unkempt,
ungroomed
He has
been coming around for a few weeks
eating
at the community table
and finding
a place to sleep on some blankets
put out
for cold old men in this winter
he
got along well enough
with
the other visitors
sitting
at this desk looking out on the porch
at
the level of the cushioned the table
I hear
a small restrained cry
and a
long exhale
hesitating at first, I go outside to see him
as his breathing stops the cushion begins to cool
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
Monday, February 23, 2015
The Nurse
I will always remember
the feeling of your soft fingers
holding my arm,
in a firm embrace
then a motion
using just your fingers
leaving your moist presence
on my arm
then the feeling
of stinging intimacy
then your release,
over too soon
the intimacy of your touch
my fingers exploring
the lingering dampness
on my arm
my heart racing
head swimming
I reel away down the hall
infatuated
the feeling of your soft fingers
holding my arm,
in a firm embrace
then a motion
using just your fingers
leaving your moist presence
on my arm
then the feeling
of stinging intimacy
then your release,
over too soon
the intimacy of your touch
my fingers exploring
the lingering dampness
on my arm
my heart racing
head swimming
I reel away down the hall
infatuated
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
Saturday, February 21, 2015
What Once Was Clear
what
once was clear,
in
stark relief, with details
engraved
with diamond tipped tools, on a crystal plate
the
smile, the colors of your eyes on a cloudy day,
the
almost dimple in your left cheek
affect,
produce heart pounding,
blood
racing, trembling hands,
speechlessness,
caring, concern
infatuation
embedded
with the image
feelings
return with the details when recalling
this image years later,
hand
trembling at a gentler pitch,
heart
racing at a slower rate, respectful of my age,
the
color of your eyes were blue, no green, light then, no, dark,
and
your hair was tossed by the wind
but
was it long or short?
What
once was clear is now covered
by
loosely woven cloth,
not
hiding, but obscuring details,
that were once so clear
Labels:
human condition,
poems,
poetry
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
Rose Garden
The
scent of roses drifted through the warm summer’s night air
as
the moon climbed, filling the reservoir with light,
a
cat wandered by, stopped for a moment
to
get a pet and a scratch, then ambled away,
wondering,
or not, why a food-guy was laying in the grass
above
the amphitheater, in the middle of the
night,
Why
indeed? Waiting for a liaison, to explain a decision
to
say good bye, hoping she would ask me to stay,
to
not enlist and perhaps go to a country that people didn’t know about yet,
or
just to see her, one last time,
to
lay on the grass next to each other, letting moonlight bathe us
she
came as promised, late as usual, parking on the road
at
the top of the hill, walking past the cat, busy in the grass,
down the gentle
slope to where I sat,
sitting
down next to me turned putting her arms around me
a
long hug, and strong kiss, before saying hello, I
was lost in her arms,
I
wanted to hang on, to not make this descent into friendship,
but
she had moved on in the spring,
so
I decided, in my despair, to leave and
go far away
the
air force, the army, the navy, seemed like the best way
even
though it was 1965 and there was war
tonight,
tonight was saying goodbye, I was leaving
I
wanted her to tell me to stay, but lost my words
expecting
her to know what I needed , without my vulnerable-self exposed,
without
me having to say anything, to save me from myself
to
make everything all right, but she didn’t
and
we hugged for a long time as the moon went away
until
the first golden light of dawn crept over the horizon
she
had to go before her parents woke up, so did I,
we
parted saying all the right things, vowing to write
but
feeling the weight I expected to be lifted, settle deeper in my chest
I
left the next day, flying to Texas,
leaving
my home and friends,
starting
a new chapter, with an emptiness I could not express,
it
was August 1965, I wouldn't return for four years,
during
those years the weight never lifted
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Torture Chamber
Do
you love someone?
and
in return for devotion and longing, get notified
that
you are just friends, or best friends,
or
even best friends forever,
and
therefore, banished
to
the friendzone
a
box canyon, with thousand foot walls
one
tantalizing way in, full of unsaid promises
one
way out, crawling on sharp stones,
beware
staying
will settle like a boulder on your chest,
leaving
will tear at you like raptors talons
until
you can’t move,
cant
breath
can’t
live,
and
finally, thinking you must return to the
box or you will die
today,
the day of the heart,
are
you listening to fables?
that
the owner of the trap can’t find anyone
the
world is empty
no
‘suitables’ and too many ‘settle fors’,
there
is no one, for them
why
won’t they look around,
you
say,
to
no one
they
have chosen to be alone,
blaming
the world for not producing
their
prefect partner
you
also have chosen to be alone,
by
being with someone
who
has put blinders on their eyes
and
you walk
the
path of loneliness
together
Labels:
human condition,
poems,
poetry
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
Thursday, February 12, 2015
The Cove
“…its dangerous, stay
off the rocks, you’ll slip and drown!”
the keepers long dead
voices,
sounding in my mind as if they were
standing right behind me even now
“No it’s magical!” (when you’re eight)
At the far south end of
the beach
where the land rose up
and turned towards the ocean,
large rocks ,ballast to
hold the road above, like a jetty
filled the corner, and
ran out into the sea
when the tide was
running in , the rocks got hidden
beneath waves , later when the tide was at the ebb
the rocks came
back , the crown, then neck, finally
shoulders,
small pools teeming
with wondrous creatures, at their feet
a boy could scramble
across the rocks to get to the big pools
at the risk of slipping
falling getting cut by sharp unseen things
and stand between the
rocks in the small pools of water
and in these pools, become
part of the magic
hermit crabs scurrying
out of reach, starfish silently watching,
muscles, seemingly easy
prey, hung on against prying fingers,
small darters, tiny
fish, too fast to catch, even when baseball caps were nets….,
aloof anemones, tentacles
waving with the motion of the waves, whispering
“…stay here with us, don’t
go home…”
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
Friday, February 6, 2015
Betrayal in the Surf
Utter despair, overwhelming
hopelessness
tricked again like Charlie
the dimple in the wet sand
a trick, Like Lucy
pretending to hold the football
walking through surf’s residue
sea foam masking evidence
of a clam
dig, dig fast
dig deep dropping to my knees
digging with my hands, in the cold wet sand
nothing,
no clam
the hole filling with sea-water
the dimple was a trick
hopelessness
tricked again like Charlie
the dimple in the wet sand
a trick, Like Lucy
pretending to hold the football
walking through surf’s residue
sea foam masking evidence
of a clam
dig, dig fast
dig deep dropping to my knees
digging with my hands, in the cold wet sand
nothing,
no clam
the hole filling with sea-water
the dimple was a trick
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Fishing from the Bridge
Away from the house,
fast and far,
fishing pole resting on Huffy handlebars,
down the prom to 12th avenue
each block further away from angry voices,
turning right and that much
closer to the bridge
that crossed the Necanicum
closer to snagging a bullhead
to cut up for bait,
to use to catch a sea-run cutthroat
salt water trout
if the tide was coming in
Labels:
human condition,
poems,
poetry,
summer
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
Sunday, February 1, 2015
Surf Fishing
Morris Albert was a rough guy
strong, with huge hands
scarred from years of hard work
he had an explosive temper
especially when he was drinking
which, was most of the time
during the war he went to prison
for stealing jeeps and truck engines
headed, on Liberty ships, to Europe
the family was afraid of him
and tip-toed around
careful what they said, or did
he used to come down to Seaside
and spend weekends
at the summer house with his wife, my aunt
he passed his time drinking, playing cards
and digging clams, or fishing
on the changing tides
I was eight
when he started taking me with him
to dig clams and fish the surf
strong, with huge hands
scarred from years of hard work
he had an explosive temper
especially when he was drinking
which, was most of the time
during the war he went to prison
for stealing jeeps and truck engines
headed, on Liberty ships, to Europe
the family was afraid of him
and tip-toed around
careful what they said, or did
he used to come down to Seaside
and spend weekends
at the summer house with his wife, my aunt
he passed his time drinking, playing cards
and digging clams, or fishing
on the changing tides
I was eight
when he started taking me with him
to dig clams and fish the surf
San Antonio, TX
San Antonio, TX 78217, USA
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